I've begun to psych myself up again. Sorry its been awhile since I updated. Last week ended really hard. The guy I was closest too decided this whole process of waiting was too much stress on him and ended the conversation with "call me when you get home." I told myself as I closed my eyes to rest, "If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as heck don't deserve me at my best." unknown...that's how I'm feeling right now. Yes I'm a ROYAL PAIN IN THE ARSE to be around right now, but if you can't understand what I'm going through and that my meds increase my crazi-headedness then you don't deserve the best of me. I love the Rocky Balboa movie...theres a quote in it that goes "Its not about how hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward." I will keep going. And I will be amazing when I make it outta here. Those that stick with me through this yucky process...will see it was all worth it in the end. I'm a great person. Just sometimes the stress helps me to not act like the great person that I am...My co-worker took the following photo of me. I laughed when I shared it with a few other co-workers as it now rests as my background on my computer...we laughed as we agreed that "if I make it out of here with any sanity left...it'll be a miracle." Enjoy a laugh with me!
Happy Monday!
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