one step forward

I took another step this weekend. I went to my orientation at the gym, I was so scared that it'd be embarrassing.

Here's this heavy girl getting shown all of this equipment...that same girl that once lost over 40lbs in 6 months, joined the Army, came back looking phenomenal...then gained it all and more back. I'm ebarrassed when I walk in the gym, I have to give myself a peptalk as I enter..."people will see and think, thata girl, make the change in your life!" And I'm greeted with warmness, with welcoming smiles, and kindness. I got a hello from a girl I know from school. How nice it was to be greeted by her...she'll never know the struggle that was goin on in my mind when she said hello, and how much her simple hello helped me.

So I learned how to properly use all of the equipment, which was SO cool! And then, I got onto the treadmill, despite my sore legs from trying all of the equipment. So I walked at a 2.5, for 5 minutes, then I made myself run...at a 5.0, for 5 minutes, and I hurt so badly that I had to walk, so then I walked at a 3.5 for 5 minutes and then did a 5 minute cool down. All-in-all I worked out for 1.5 hours...it was awesome, the run was the best. I know it was only 5 minutes, but its a start...and when I have my ipod I can focus myself better. My next step is to run for 10 minutes...I dont care the pace right now I just want to run for 10 minutes. Once I can work myself up to running 25 minutes non-stop then I'll start pushing my pace...can't wait for spring, I really wanna run outside, I hate hitting the treadmill...but thats what I get for now, so here we go...