Just a forewarning that I'm fine...despite all the ponderings and discussions on death this evening :-)

So, these last few days this winter weather has really gotten me thinking on how dangerous it really is to drive in. Yesterday I was petrified to go to school I was almost in tears, talking with Jeff. So I asked for prayer, and sure enough as I was heading to schoo-l a snow plow/salt truck pulled out in front of me right outside of Genoa and led my way plowing and dropping salt all the way to school. How awesome is God??!! Well He again proved His awesomeness (as if he needs to) when today I'm driving to Dekalb and the car in front of me tapped their breaks on which forced me to tap mine as well. Which then threw me into a fishtail and a few doughnuts and by God's grace I didn't hit anyone or anything.

So yesterday I told my sister-in-law that if anything were to ever happen to me,I would want her to care for the one I love, it reminded me of a conversation I had with my brother while I was stationed in Korea...that if I were ever to become in a state where someone would have to choose to pull the plug on me, I asked that he be the one to make the decision...because I know that John & Kandy would pull together, and they would use God's strength to get them through the days. I worry about my other loved ones, how they would take it, etc etc...

And then today I thought of what would happen if I'd lose Jeff, Jackson, Addison, John, Kandy, Mom, Dad...my list goes on and on. How would I hold up...how would I put one foot in front of the other? All I know is that God would give me a way so long as I continue to follow His path.

Theres not really a point to this post...just a peak into my thoughts the last few days.

If anything were to ever happen to me, my readers, look after my loved ones, encourage them to keep going, remind eachother how much I loved you, life, Christ. Hold eachother up when you're struggling, and keep pressing on, You'll know that I'm with Christ.

Ok, ok enough of that...like I was trying to forewarn you I'm not depressed I'm not considering suicide...just some thoughts that came through my head, and then I told the ones I love that I loved them...and thats that.