So, my Chaplain, bless his heart has been diving in full force to get me some answers...and he has emerged victorious. Turns out in the begining when they said it'd be 2-3 weeks they were giving me false information. Go figure right? Well last week the Surgeon General of the Army came down (lots of stars...he's one of the top guys of the Army) to check things out. Anyway, he had two things he really didn't like about our wounded warriors. Well one was that we were getting false information. Anyway, my Chaplain found out that my orders were cut on the 18th of April. And now it really should be 2-3 weeks til I get them and can start the 10 day process of getting out of here.
Exciting: YES
Stressful: YES YES
Turns out that would put me on or around the week of my departure is about when my nephew turns 1, and my mini-me (Kati, my cousin) graduates from High School. This makes me REALLY nervous. These were 2 huge events that I really need to be home for. No, it wouldn't end the world, but I'd be quite sad missing that. Please pray that we can get the orders and work out a plan that I can be home even the day of or the evening before Kati's graduation so I can be present. Oh, shhhhh if it comes down to real close and I know I'm going to make it, I think I'll tell Kati a little fib and surprise her.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Welp...I'm goin home...for the day :-(
Went down to the doctor today, he says I have strepp throat. I was going to try to stay at work, cause well, they need me. But I'm feeling yucky. So I'm going home. to the barracks...
On a happier note, the Army got free tickets to the Kenny Chesney, Leann Rimes, Brooks & Dunn, Luke Bryant concert I think its the Poets and Pirates tour, anyways a group of friends and I got tickets...and Saturday night I'm going to be in Columbia SC rocking out!! I'm SUPER EXCITED!!!!
Have a beautiful day! I'll catch you all tomorrow!
On a happier note, the Army got free tickets to the Kenny Chesney, Leann Rimes, Brooks & Dunn, Luke Bryant concert I think its the Poets and Pirates tour, anyways a group of friends and I got tickets...and Saturday night I'm going to be in Columbia SC rocking out!! I'm SUPER EXCITED!!!!
Have a beautiful day! I'll catch you all tomorrow!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Working towards a goal...
My DDD (degenerative disc disease) currently prevents me from running...I hate that! I hope one day I can be cleared to run again. But this year is the 2nd Annual Brett's Run, in Genoa. Its a 5k (3.1 miles) I'm going to register to walk it. Any takers on walking it with me? It'll be in June, right around the time of Genoa Days. I'm going to start training now, to walk it real quick. The Army standard for a female of 22-26 years of age to walk 2.5 miles is 37:30. My goal is to be around that time frame for the 3.1 mile walk. That gives me just about 12 minutes per mile. I think that is def. an attainable goal. Wish me luck, better yet, anyone wish to join me? Even if you run it?
A lil humor to start off a new week...
Hello Friends,
I've begun to psych myself up again. Sorry its been awhile since I updated. Last week ended really hard. The guy I was closest too decided this whole process of waiting was too much stress on him and ended the conversation with "call me when you get home." I told myself as I closed my eyes to rest, "If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as heck don't deserve me at my best." unknown...that's how I'm feeling right now. Yes I'm a ROYAL PAIN IN THE ARSE to be around right now, but if you can't understand what I'm going through and that my meds increase my crazi-headedness then you don't deserve the best of me. I love the Rocky Balboa movie...theres a quote in it that goes "Its not about how hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward." I will keep going. And I will be amazing when I make it outta here. Those that stick with me through this yucky process...will see it was all worth it in the end. I'm a great person. Just sometimes the stress helps me to not act like the great person that I am...My co-worker took the following photo of me. I laughed when I shared it with a few other co-workers as it now rests as my background on my computer...we laughed as we agreed that "if I make it out of here with any sanity left...it'll be a miracle." Enjoy a laugh with me!
Happy Monday!
I've begun to psych myself up again. Sorry its been awhile since I updated. Last week ended really hard. The guy I was closest too decided this whole process of waiting was too much stress on him and ended the conversation with "call me when you get home." I told myself as I closed my eyes to rest, "If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as heck don't deserve me at my best." unknown...that's how I'm feeling right now. Yes I'm a ROYAL PAIN IN THE ARSE to be around right now, but if you can't understand what I'm going through and that my meds increase my crazi-headedness then you don't deserve the best of me. I love the Rocky Balboa movie...theres a quote in it that goes "Its not about how hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward." I will keep going. And I will be amazing when I make it outta here. Those that stick with me through this yucky process...will see it was all worth it in the end. I'm a great person. Just sometimes the stress helps me to not act like the great person that I am...My co-worker took the following photo of me. I laughed when I shared it with a few other co-workers as it now rests as my background on my computer...we laughed as we agreed that "if I make it out of here with any sanity left...it'll be a miracle." Enjoy a laugh with me!
Happy Monday!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
I've hit the wall...full speed...
My friends,
This blog is going to be short. I hit my worst of the worst for breaking points today. Everyone knows my situation. Zeke is going to be rellocated to one of my chaplain's houses. its a hard story...I dont really feel like going into it, it feels like all I've been typing are my whiny posts...so I'm leaving it at this...I've hit the concrete wall...face first, and I'm down...I just gotta make this into a stepping stone. I'm calling out my warriors, I need your help. Call me, txt me, email me, pls, just help me through this! I need a hug.
This blog is going to be short. I hit my worst of the worst for breaking points today. Everyone knows my situation. Zeke is going to be rellocated to one of my chaplain's houses. its a hard story...I dont really feel like going into it, it feels like all I've been typing are my whiny posts...so I'm leaving it at this...I've hit the concrete wall...face first, and I'm down...I just gotta make this into a stepping stone. I'm calling out my warriors, I need your help. Call me, txt me, email me, pls, just help me through this! I need a hug.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
"To Cut Slingload"
This is a phrase used often in the Army, and very often in my office. I would define it as to rid yourself of something, i.e. extra baggage, a relationship, etc.
So I asked myself on the way to lunch today, what do I need to cut slingload on? I can think of a few relationships, I've become frustrated with and would at times, like to cut sling load on them. But faith and maybe even determination continually whispers, give it another try. And sure enough, the person or people involved, do something wonderful and it reminds me why I continue to carry on.
I'd also like to cut slingload on my weight. I never once thought enlisting in the Army and becoming a Chaplain Assistant would place me behind a desk. Sure I knew I'd have administrative duties, I just didn't think THIS much! Well, a lack of it here...shh dont tell my boss, I'm getting good at faking busy. Truth of the matter is, I'm so bored throughout the day and can't see the outside world (thanks to no windows!) that by the time I get off work, I'm lethargic and lazy. My battle buddy Irons and I were discussing what we were going to eat on the way into the chow hall, she wanted some dessert and soda for sure...I laughed told her she'd be asleep by 1500 (3pm) because she'd crash so bad from the sugar rush. I'm trying to watch my calories and begin dropping some of this weight, so I've stopped drinking sodas (except special ocassions) and have been limiting what I eat and trying to find balance in my meals even if they aren't prepped the way I'd like (most baked chicken and fish, and vegeies for that matter down here are just sitting and soaking in butter, its REALLY GROSS!) I watched the season finale' of The Biggest Loser Couples last night, I was rooting for Kelly and Ali, but more so Kelly. She had been the underdog from the get-go. And she stayed on the ranch the entire time...never once got eliminated as Ali did. But then when the show was prepping us for Kelly's final weigh-in, it was revealed that 6 weeks prior when she was released from the ranch, she wound up in the hospital with a herniated disc. A back-injury. Man, I'd love to have seen her pull of the win. Ali did though. She was the first female to ever win the Biggest Loser. I'm proud of her! She's so ity bity now. I want to end up in that spot, despite my neck-injury. I will make it. I don't like living in this body that I dislike so much. It's time to make a change. It's time to get my smile back.
I'm ready, I've got my blinders on and I will not fail my mission. I will have set-backs, thats just the way it goes. But I'm ready for them to knock me back down a few steps from my climb and then I'll continue on. Even if its 2 steps forward, 1 step back, I will complete my goal of a 50lbs weight loss, by this time next year. Help me in my journey friends. I'm starting off very fragile, my self-esteem isn't very high, but I know I've done amazing things before, and this is nothing new to me. I love challenges, they drive me.
I'll never forget what one of my NCO's in Korea said to me, after we finished the ruck march that through my neck into a tailspin...I had led the Soldiers, since I was the shortest for the march. There was a huge hill above us, and from there all we'd have to do is climb it, turn around and the walk back would be cake...When we got to the top of the mountain and were getting ready to start back down my 1SG replaced me as leader. Out of breath this NCO came over to me and said, "I've never known a Soldier to not only keep the pace when climbing any kind of hill, let alone gain speed as you did." Carrying all the weight on my back, I did just that, I climbed, I put my head down, and I went, I told myself one more step, one more step, and I watched my feet...I didn't look at the hill, and before I knew, the order was givin..."HALT!" I had made it.
I am approaching this goal as I did that hill and every hill I ever walked, marched, and ran, I will put my head down, and tell myself just one more step, one more!
So I asked myself on the way to lunch today, what do I need to cut slingload on? I can think of a few relationships, I've become frustrated with and would at times, like to cut sling load on them. But faith and maybe even determination continually whispers, give it another try. And sure enough, the person or people involved, do something wonderful and it reminds me why I continue to carry on.
I'd also like to cut slingload on my weight. I never once thought enlisting in the Army and becoming a Chaplain Assistant would place me behind a desk. Sure I knew I'd have administrative duties, I just didn't think THIS much! Well, a lack of it here...shh dont tell my boss, I'm getting good at faking busy. Truth of the matter is, I'm so bored throughout the day and can't see the outside world (thanks to no windows!) that by the time I get off work, I'm lethargic and lazy. My battle buddy Irons and I were discussing what we were going to eat on the way into the chow hall, she wanted some dessert and soda for sure...I laughed told her she'd be asleep by 1500 (3pm) because she'd crash so bad from the sugar rush. I'm trying to watch my calories and begin dropping some of this weight, so I've stopped drinking sodas (except special ocassions) and have been limiting what I eat and trying to find balance in my meals even if they aren't prepped the way I'd like (most baked chicken and fish, and vegeies for that matter down here are just sitting and soaking in butter, its REALLY GROSS!) I watched the season finale' of The Biggest Loser Couples last night, I was rooting for Kelly and Ali, but more so Kelly. She had been the underdog from the get-go. And she stayed on the ranch the entire time...never once got eliminated as Ali did. But then when the show was prepping us for Kelly's final weigh-in, it was revealed that 6 weeks prior when she was released from the ranch, she wound up in the hospital with a herniated disc. A back-injury. Man, I'd love to have seen her pull of the win. Ali did though. She was the first female to ever win the Biggest Loser. I'm proud of her! She's so ity bity now. I want to end up in that spot, despite my neck-injury. I will make it. I don't like living in this body that I dislike so much. It's time to make a change. It's time to get my smile back.
I'm ready, I've got my blinders on and I will not fail my mission. I will have set-backs, thats just the way it goes. But I'm ready for them to knock me back down a few steps from my climb and then I'll continue on. Even if its 2 steps forward, 1 step back, I will complete my goal of a 50lbs weight loss, by this time next year. Help me in my journey friends. I'm starting off very fragile, my self-esteem isn't very high, but I know I've done amazing things before, and this is nothing new to me. I love challenges, they drive me.
I'll never forget what one of my NCO's in Korea said to me, after we finished the ruck march that through my neck into a tailspin...I had led the Soldiers, since I was the shortest for the march. There was a huge hill above us, and from there all we'd have to do is climb it, turn around and the walk back would be cake...When we got to the top of the mountain and were getting ready to start back down my 1SG replaced me as leader. Out of breath this NCO came over to me and said, "I've never known a Soldier to not only keep the pace when climbing any kind of hill, let alone gain speed as you did." Carrying all the weight on my back, I did just that, I climbed, I put my head down, and I went, I told myself one more step, one more step, and I watched my feet...I didn't look at the hill, and before I knew, the order was givin..."HALT!" I had made it.
I am approaching this goal as I did that hill and every hill I ever walked, marched, and ran, I will put my head down, and tell myself just one more step, one more!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
What a blessing this wait is...
How funny of it that just a few days ago I was saying how hard it was. Things have continued to change as I await my release. And yet, I've found my Prince of Peace. I blogged a little bit ago about wanting to lose weight. I want to do it the right way this time, I'm not limiting myself to non-sweets...that just makes me miserable. No, this time I'm just watching my calorie intake and exercising, the progress is going to be slower, but the progress will last longer! I joined www.sparkepeople.com and have fallen in love with that site! There are teams formed that support eachother, I'm finding myself praying for strangers, encouraging others. And, I've found people with DDD (Degenerative Disc Disease) like mine! They are losing weight and banding together. Its awesome to know I'm not the only one in pain everyday, but we are not only stepping on that stone in the road, but we're going over it and continuing on!
So much is happening. My Colonel Chaplain, and my company commander are both doing research into what and why this is taking so long. How blessed am I? I didn't even have to ask for help. They saw the stress I'm going through and willingly struck out to try and help my situation. These are just two of the amazing men I work under. I thank God for them. I can't imagine how hard it'd be to go through this whole process without what I've started telling myself is Team Emily...or if the office would name it...Team Auntie Em. I want all of you to know, that you mean the world to me. Not just those here with me helping me through it, but everyone back home and yes, even my friends online. You all are doing amazing! Thank-you, you're all the answers to my countless prayers for God to send his mercies down. What an amazing God we serve that He would send me such an amazing team of angels. I truly thank God for each and every one of you!
So much is happening. My Colonel Chaplain, and my company commander are both doing research into what and why this is taking so long. How blessed am I? I didn't even have to ask for help. They saw the stress I'm going through and willingly struck out to try and help my situation. These are just two of the amazing men I work under. I thank God for them. I can't imagine how hard it'd be to go through this whole process without what I've started telling myself is Team Emily...or if the office would name it...Team Auntie Em. I want all of you to know, that you mean the world to me. Not just those here with me helping me through it, but everyone back home and yes, even my friends online. You all are doing amazing! Thank-you, you're all the answers to my countless prayers for God to send his mercies down. What an amazing God we serve that He would send me such an amazing team of angels. I truly thank God for each and every one of you!
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