A love worth waiting for...a note about my labor!

All of my life I've wanted to be a mother. I would play pretend as a little girl that I had loads of children. I hoped in my teen years that I would marry and start having children around the age of 21. But we all know how that story goes. I married at the age of 28, and my son, Jonathan, was born just months shy of my 30th birthday! As I type his tiny 4-day old self is laying in the swing within arms reach, fast asleep. I can't believe this child I've longed for all my life...is finally here. It only took 29 years in the making, 37 weeks of baking and 36 hours of labor for him to arrive. It couldn't have happened any better. God's timing is impeccable, don't you think?? He couldn't have formed a more wonderful son for my husband and myself! Jonathan is wonderful and worth every second of waiting!

I've had several people, including my doctor and nurses, tell me since his arrival how much of a trooper, champ, all star, etc I was during the whole ordeal. The fact of the matter, at least from my perspective, is that I'm not all that. Half of my labor I didn't feel anything except my water breaking...over and again! Then when I did start to feel the pain, I quickly became discouraged and asked for an epidural. Best decision, EVER! I was able to get a full nights rest and then when I woke up the next morning, it was just about time to push. I was scared the entire 36 hours...no, terrified! I didn't know what to expect, and I didn't know how everything would happen...and that is my worst nightmare. But God is gracious, and allowed me to have ways of listening to some worship music for a lot of my hours and that made all of the difference in the world! I just kept singing along with the songs in my head, and when I couldn't focus on the music because of the pain...I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I asked God to take control of the whole situation (even though I knew he had complete control over every moment of it!) I prayed that I couldn't do this on my own and that Jonathan was His creation, and begged the Lord to deliver my son as safely as possible. And he did! Thank you Lord, that your love isn't a love we need to wait for...that's its tangible and here for us now!!