I need your prayers

Good morning my friends and family,

I'm writing you a short little segment while I'm on my lunch at work, I need your help. I made my first appointment for my medical board evaluation...dont stop breathing, I'm not coming home...yet. This is the steps I have to take to figure out if the Army will hold onto me or let me go. I'm nervous. My NCOIC said they asked him if he wanted to stay or go. Quite honestly, I'm torn. I'd love to come home, boy would I ever, to see Jackson, babysit him, to spend some much needed time with my sister-in-law. Just be there for my family...but I'm needed here too. And I'm not set up to get out of the Army right this moment. I'm not covered now if I leave for health insurance (which I will DEF. need for my neck and weekly visits to my chiropractor) along with I'd lose my pay, and possibly not get all of my GI Bill money. There are a LOT of questions I have before I can make a choice and its all so overwhelming inside...I guess what I'm saying is I need God's still small voice to calm my scared and shaking spirit, and to guide toward the way that He wants me to go. I want to come home, trust me I do, but I'm scared of not having my degree and coming back to attempt to find work and support Zeke and I on our own...We all know I can't go back to mom's for a LONG period of time, she and I are great when we don't live together, so moving into an apt or getting a house is Zeke & I's best option...just gotta find a job that will help me to pay rent and oh btw go to school to, to finish my degree. Oh man, I'm nervous and I dont even go until December 14th...0830...

In need of your prayers and hugs,
Emily