Sitting and Waiting

I went to see my doctor again today in regards to my neck. My profile was about to expire...ok like late november but I wanted to get in there now. He changed my status from deployable to NON-Deployable...yes, I have a guarantee now I can not be sent to the war...makes me very MAD, sad, I'm not quite sure which one dominates. I feel worthless as a Soldier. I know there is good work here in the states to do, but at the same time, it breaks my heart. Also, in repercussion to the non-deployable status..my records have been forwarded to another Doctor who will review them through the medical evaluation board, which will determine whether or not I get to stay in the Army. It's a scary time right now for me. Sure this has been on my mind since the treatments kept not working, but...still it I dunno. Anyway thats all I have, I'm pending a medical board evaluation, and the family can rest assured, I can't be sent to war. Pray for me please?