Sitting and Waiting

I went to see my doctor again today in regards to my neck. My profile was about to expire...ok like late november but I wanted to get in there now. He changed my status from deployable to NON-Deployable...yes, I have a guarantee now I can not be sent to the war...makes me very MAD, sad, I'm not quite sure which one dominates. I feel worthless as a Soldier. I know there is good work here in the states to do, but at the same time, it breaks my heart. Also, in repercussion to the non-deployable status..my records have been forwarded to another Doctor who will review them through the medical evaluation board, which will determine whether or not I get to stay in the Army. It's a scary time right now for me. Sure this has been on my mind since the treatments kept not working, but...still it I dunno. Anyway thats all I have, I'm pending a medical board evaluation, and the family can rest assured, I can't be sent to war. Pray for me please?

A new feel...

Well, I figure its time for a change of the page, so I did it! I changed up the pictures, changed the background and now its all switched up! Mainly I felt the change was needed because the pictures were out of date. My sweet Jackson has grown and changed so much in the few months I've been apart from him that I wanted to update our pictures. I will see him again physically in February and I'm anxiously counting down the days until I can hug my sister-in-law again and hold Jackson. I miss my family. I feel so distant from John, Kandy, and Jackson these days. Thats my goal this year as my birthday comes closer. I'd like to build a closer bond with Kandy, she's such an amazing woman of faith to look up to, and I have so far to go to reach up to God. Sorry, starting ranting again about things totally not on topic...but there you go..I changed the background and the pictures...Enjoy!

Have you heard...

the new Steven Curtis Chapman song Cinderella...OMG most beautiful father/daughter song I've heard in a VERY long time! Its on his new cd This Moment...I totally asked mom for it for my b-day...heres hoping I get it! 18 Days by the way folks!!! Then I'll be the big ole 2-4!!

What is your....

I'm Curious....what's your favorite Halloween memory or favorite thing to do for the day?? Mine has always been watching mom's enthusiasm as so many dress up and play along for her birthday! Leave me a comment and share your favorite halloween tradition, memory, costume...anything!

Good gravy, I've done it again...

I've sprained my ankle yet again...I swear you'd think after so many sprains they'd just fall off, and yet they don't! I was carrying a couch down a flight of stairs (yup, I got a full couch...for FREE!) when I missed the last step and fell. Skinned up my knee, rolled my ankle and now I'm back on my beloved friends the crutches...only for not even a week, doc said as soon as I feel good walking again I can go without...but...this morning I worked up quite a sweat just getting into the hospital and up to my office...I think this will be my only day on the sticks. I'll just gimp the rest of the week!

So I have a couch and a love seat now...I'm ready for visitors! So, whose coming to visit after Kati and Diana?! :-)

Ok, so its been a while since I did any kinds of updates...I'm still here! Just I don't spend much time online anymore because of the simple fact I had to downgrade to dial-up and well I've forgotten how slow it is!! But I promised Kandy I would give you all an update so here I am, Saturday morning, writing a blog, watching Bridgett Jones' Diary number 2. Champ seems to be growing out of his tank already, he's def. gotten a lot bigger! Zeke had his first "Mommy" haircut today...he survived and was SOOOO Sweet through the whole process! I managed to get a good bit of it cut and then got out my scissors and even got some of his facial hair cut! He can see again!!!

And now for my exciting news...Zeke has a new sister Cena, (prounced Zena)








And with my neck, I went for my first round of steroid injections...it was awful, to procedure hurt so bad and I couldnt do anything but lay still and allow the tears to roll down my cheeks. Afterwards I went between feeling nauseated and lightheaded. When I tried to walk I needed an escort for a good 2-3 hours it felt like I was falling backwards all the time. My neck hurt worse after the numbing wore off not even 3 hours later. The Chaplain's sent me home, I couldn't move my shoulders or neck and I was in a lot of pain. I still continue to have pain daily that is worse than I did before the injections. They had me scheduled (unbeknownst to me) to have more injections on the 25th of this month. I called and cancelled. I don't know what the next step will be. But for now I continue to go to the chiropractor...I sleep with a ice pack that Aunt Karen made and dad bought for me...every night. I go back to my doctor on the 7th I believe of next month. Not sure when or what will happen then.

The Apartment...

New Places, and New Owies!

Hey Everybody!!

I know its been awhile since I last wrote but things have been quite busy around here!! I got back from San Antonio, didn't even have a full week to move into my apartment when I left for leave on Friday to go home for a wedding.


I spent the weekend with some great friends and enjoyed the wedding with Phil. I flew home Sunday night and have been attempting to do more organizing and decorating of the apartment since.

Yesterday, (Wednesday)
I had my first round of steriod injections. The best way to describe it was they gave me 6 epiderals in my back that went directly inbetween the veterbrae that are in my upper back/neck. It was extremely painful, I did everything I could during the procedure not to think about it, when it was time for me to sit up from lying on my stomach, I got a huge headrush and then had to take extreme time just to be able to stand and walk to my recovery room. There I became nauseated and still felt really out of it. Come to find out he'd numbed my neck. Well after my recovery time (25 mins) I walked to the counter to make my follow-up apt. I had to hold onto the counter when I was walking, it felt like I was tipping back onto my heels and was going to fall. No wonder they require a driver to be with us! So SGT Steeb was there to help me out to his car, and then also to help me into the hospital so we could go back to work...well, CH Conner saw the condition I was in, and asked why I was even at the office. The doctor said I could return to work so I did. I told him I was fine ( even though I had no center of gravity and couldn't move my head/neck.) so I ate lunch and thats when the numbing started to wear off...and thats when the pain set in. I took CH Conner's offer then, and went home. SGT Steeb took me home and about 20 mins later SPC Nyczaj (Ni-Chi) arrived to "babysit" so we got to hang out, and then I bought us some pizza for dinner. Today I have full range of motion in my neck from side to side however its painful. I can move about half-way through putting my chin to chest or tipping my head back to where it becomes painful. I'm told within a few days I should feel better than I did prior to the procedure...I still vote no matter how good the results, never to do this again...maybe now I can convince my doc to start my chapter paperwork. I need to go see my chiropractor today but I'm afraid it will hurt, maybe I'll pop down there this afternoon and just tell him I'm hurting and to be kind...

In other news, I've put up a few decorations for the apartment and for halloween up in my apartment...here's a picture of the window decorations I've put up...