25 Random things about me...

1. I follow my heart...even if it means giving up some things that I love
2. I've finally found what it means to be happy, I'll be damned if I screw it up
3. I want to go back to S. Korea some day
4. I also want to adopt a baby while I'm there and bring her back to the states with me
5. This is the first time since I left highschool that I finally dont want to go back to that age and stay stuck in it.
6. I want to lose my weight, but I really really hate it when people try to help me with it, even if I do need the nudges.
7. I've blame the Army/ my experiences while I was in for the growing up I had to do...
8. ...now I praise God for those trials
9. Theres a very very highly likely chance I may be moving again in the coming months
10. I've realized that Genoa is an awesome place to be, or maybe its just really awesome to visit???
11. I dont mean to blow up at my mother, sometimes she pushes my buttons way too well, but I allow her to get to me.
12. I love to watch him smile
13. I'm so happy for my fab 5 girls, we've all come a long long way!
14. I seriously can't wait to see what God has in store for me...with all of the lessons I've learned these last few years, my life is bound to be an amazing roller coaster ride!
15. I'm convinced God has amazing things in store for my life.
16. I'm ready to get my money and my credit all back on track!
17. I don't like being stereotyped as a Christian, too many people have messed up that name tag.
18. I dont think I could ever live without Zeke in my life again.
19. I'm scared to death of the day that I lose Zeke forever.
20. Nothing is more relaxing than watching Zeke sleep
21. or having a baby asleep in my arms
22. I want to learn to scuba dive
23. I may not tell them enough but I seriously have the most loyal friends in the whole wide world, and I cherish them more than I could ever say
24. My heart breaks everytime I see how frustrated he is when it comes to dealing with her
25. I'm humbled and amazed at the man I see before me that God has placed ever so gracefully into my life...he's my best friend, my hero, my man!

HOORAY!!!!

for the first time in at least 2 years...I went jogging today!!! While in the Army I was on a walking only profile to where I couldn't run cause it caused pain running at the pace of the formation. So I walked a 2 minute warm-up, ran for 5 minutes until my body was starting to hurt (my ankle specifically, I'm assuming too much weight on it) so then I slowed down to a brisk walk for 8 mins, then I ran for 5 more minutes then did my cool down...it felt great! I'm really getting motivated again to drop some weight! Time to get to a healthier, more energetic, happier Auntie Em!!

Whom Shall I Fear?

"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalm 27:1

What a true and honest verse this is! And I honestly dont know that I could have appreciated it more without going through the trial my family just did. God called me to trust Him in ways I never thought I could. With help from my God fearing sister-in-law, brother, amazing boyfriend, and a few other strong believers; I was able to draw closer to the Lord than I ever thought possible. I don't regret that we went through that trial, and I'm pretty sure if you ask anyone else directly involved they would say the say thing. Everyone has grown stronger and closer together through it. I am in very anxious anticipation of getting to go to church tomorrow and fully worship the God that I now truly know as a redeemer, and the stronghold of my life.

I challenge you that what-ever obstacles you face that you really use them to draw nearer to God. Find out what you can do to let Christ shine through, and then really let Him shine. You'll see things you never knew you'd be able to see, and His blessings will come in an abundance.

Shine on brothers and sisters til the day of our Lord has come! Don't give up!!



WELCOME HOME JACKSON!!!
This is John Kandy & Jackson together again in their own home!

God says...

Stop doubting!

GOD IS SO GOOD!!! Jackson is home where he belongs, with John & Kandy! What a blessed day yesterday was!!

The amazing man in my life has challenged me recently to really start paying attention to what I typically call my "gut instinct." It was pressed onto his heart to bring it to my attention that, that may just be a gift that God has blessed me with. He brought it to me that it may be God communicating with me. I knew deep in my heart that things would turn harder before it was all done. And when the call came that we were going thru that harder challenge I cried. I didn't want him to be right, that maybe just maybe God talks to me in this way to help others prepare for whats coming. But then it came to me as he talked me through my emotions...it came to me. There was nothing to worry about. It was like a light flipped. Jackson was going to go home, I knew it in my heart. And sure enough...days later, he went home!

I'm continuing to explore this gift that God may have blessed me with.

How is God talking you through your situation?

"My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all, and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand. I and the Father are one." John 10:27-30

2009

Happy New Years!!!!!

2009 is going to be a great year! I just know it...for some reason even numbered years have always been harder for me...so I'm about due for another odd numbered year :-) Regardless, I'm going to keep on keeping on! Life is going to be full of challengs no matter where we are no matter if the year is odd or even. But when we use that challenge to bring glory to God thats what makes it all worth while. Its all about the choice that we make to glorify God in our situation.

No matter what you face, keep on trucking!!!

Its Christmas...you can't take my joy...

I'm writing with a frustrated soul today. I'm at my limit. And for some reason Satan is continuing to attempt to steal my joy this CHRIST-the Lord IS my Savior-mas. I'm not going to go into the specifics of everything that has continued to go wrong...but I will tell you this. I'm worn out. I'm frustrated. And I can't even talk to one of the few people that can and does continually lift my spirits. Tears are trying to brim as I look out onto our snow covered patio. John's deep fryer is all set up ready for the turkeys that will be going in soon! 20 family members will be squishing into moms house. We're the closest this family has EVER been. I just want to praise God for that! I want to praise Him for the fun we're going to have tonight. At the same time its almost bitter sweet how I'm home, with all of my family. And yet, Victor and countless other Soldiers are in Iraq, getting bombed, fighting for our country. Stupid insurgents...working for Satan...I'm not letting you steal my joy. My car has a flat tire. John found it as we were heading home for naptime. Thank God my check came and I have the money to get it checked out and fixed. I'm not letting you steal my joy. Other things have tried to steal our joy. But I'm not going to let you steal my joy. CHRIST WAS STILL BORN. MY GOD STILL REIGNS. I'M HEALTHY, (for the most part) HOME, AND LOVED. What more could I ask for? I'll leave you with the song thats on my heart.


"Shackles (Praise You)"

Whoo!
It sure is hot out here
Ya know?
I don't mind though
Just glad to be free
Know what I'm saying, uh!

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you(What'cha wanna do?)
I just wanna praise you
(Yeah, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
(Uh feel me?)
And I'm gonna praise you
(What'cha gon do?)
I'm gonna praise you

In the corners of mind
I just can't seem to find a reason to believe
That I can break free
Cause you see I have been down for so long
Feel like the hope is gone
But as I lift my hands, I understand
That I should praise you through my circumstance

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you

Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gon lose my mind
But I know you wanna see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need you to lift this load
Cause I can't take it anymore

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you

Been through the fire and the rain
Bound in every kind of way
But God has broken every chain
So let me go right now

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you
[repeat x3]

Take them off
What'cha gonna do, yeah

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you


[Thanks to americana_411@yahoo.com for correcting these lyrics]

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Merry Christ-the Lord is MY Savior-mas!!

No matter what I will stand...I have a firm foundation in Christ who is my STRENGTH AND SALVATION! I Praise God for Jesus birth today! Despite the pain, I will Stand for Christ gives me the strength to stand and sing and shout praises to my King!

"Stand"

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

[Chorus:]
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

[Repeat Chorus]

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Oh

[Repeat Chorus]


[Thanks to BlaBla for correcting these lyrics]

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