Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I really enjoy...



I crave the show from week to week...its like a sick addiction, but is it really? for the first time in years I'm finding myself truly motivated...not just from that movie, but I recently saw a picture of myself and I was and still am truly sick to my stomach over how large my body is now. I long to go back to the days when my face was skinny and I was proud of my appearance...I know I put on this weight because of unhappiness, I'd eat and eat to supress my feelings as I struggled through a few different battles...but none of those excuses stand up anymore...

I look at those contestants and I'm not only crying for them, I'm crying because I know I'm headed that way if I don't do something about it now. I'm crying because for some of them this show was a last ditch effort to save their life. I never want to get to that point. EVER.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Anxiety mounts as my emotional rollercoaster weekend begins



I'm sitting here in my lazy boy listening to the rain, waiting...waiting for a phone call from my baptizing pastor to discuss my brief testimony I will be giving on Sunday...my emotional high day...the rain seems to trump my mood today, today my heart is broken...tomorrow I fear the pieces will shatter right out of my chest. Tomorrows is Matthew Martinek's funeral. My first military funeral of a fellow brother-in-arms who fell at the price of freedom.

I'm proud of this young man I never knew. I'm proud of his service, I'm proud of his brother who is continuing his choice to return to the service. I'm proud of this great country that I served. Yet the rain falling reminds me that today and tomorrow are hard days for that family. I can't imagine the pain they must feel, the burden they carry, watching mourners pay their respects to their son, their brother, their cousin, their uncle, their best friend, their battle buddy. My heart aches for all of the families that have had to endure this process, that so patriotically sent their child to harms way praying and hoping to never get the call that this family did. I pray for my Soldiers every day...praying that they will come home safely, yet I know the price of freedom is sometimes the price of a life laid down for us. I ask that you as my reader would stop and just take a moment to pray for all of the mourning families, for the families that are on pins and needles until their servicemember comes home, and even for the ones who have their loved one home for right now.


Sunday as you may have guessed, I will be baptized at my church. Some of you may know me and may think, "But you were baptized as an infant..." Its different at Harvest...and I agree with their way of thinking towards baptism. Its a way for a person to publicly proclaim that they are a follower of Jesus Christ. The baptism step comes after the choice of and prayer for salvation. I will be sharing a brief glimpse of my story, in front of 1000+ worshippers. It brought me alot of comfort when during worship either last week or the week before the song leader encouraged those afraid to step up to the microphone to share scripture that we as a congregation aren't there to judge, that we are a family...in that I find comfort. I'm also extremely excited and have been praying for this day since the day that I decided to be baptized. I'm praying that those that hear my story will be stirred up, changed, or even just smile remembering their baptism.

Hows your weekend?!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Our Community Mourns...

A Soldier from my community was killed in the line of battle. I wasn't fortunate enough to know this brave soul, but I do know his brother, another brave Warrior for our Country. My heart goes out to their family...



"DeKALB – A 20-year-old U.S. Army soldier from DeKalb County has died of injuries he suffered in Afghanistan in a bomb attack on his vehicle.

Pfc. Matthew M. Martinek died Friday, Sept. 11, at Landstuhl Regional Medical Center in Landstuhl, Germany, of wounds he suffered Sept. 4 in the Paktika province of Afghanistan, according to the U.S. Department of Defense. Martinek's vehicle was attacked with an improvised explosive device, followed by grenade and small-arms fire, the Defense Department said in a written statement.

He was among six soldiers that day who were joined by their lieutenant in trying to secure their vehicle after the initial attack, according to a written statement from the U.S. Army Alaska, where Martinek was deployed. Then the group was hit by a rocket-propelled grenade and small arms fire.

Also killed was 2nd Lt. Darryn Andrews, of Dallas, Texas. The other Soldiers were wounded, said the statement.

A paratrooper supporting Operation Enduring Freedom, Martinek joined the Army in March 2008. He was assigned to the 1st Battalion, 501st Parachute Infantry Regiment, 4th Brigade Combat Team (Airborne), 25th Infantry Division, based in Fort Richardson, Ala. He was deployed to Afghanistan in March 2009, said Maj. Bill Coppernoll, public affairs officer for the U.S. Army Alaska.

The Army lists Martinek as being from DeKalb, but he attended Genoa-Kingston schools from kindergarten through his freshman year of high school, Schools Superintendent Scott Wakeley said Monday. He graduated from Bartlett High School in 2007, according to his profile on Facebook, a social networking Web site. The site identifies his hometown as Genoa.

Clayton Greenlee, 20, also of Genoa, reminisced Monday about playing little league baseball with Martinek. The two were friends in grade school and kept in touch after Martinek moved to Bartlett. Greenlee said Martinek moved back to the DeKalb area after high school and worked at a tire store in Sycamore.

"Even when he moved away, he still kept in contact with me and our other friends," Greenlee said Monday during a phone interview. "He was a great person."

He described Martinek as someone with a good heart who made time for his friends and family. His hobbies included many outdoor activities, like camping, biking and riding all-terrain vehicles.

"He always made sure that you were in a good mood and if you were sad or distressed he tried to help in any way he could," Greenlee said. "He will be missed dearly by all of his friends."

As of Sept. 11, there had been 23 soldier deaths this year in U.S. Army Alaska, Coppernoll said.

Martinek is at least the fourth servicemen of DeKalb County who has died and whose family members have been notified. Before him were 1st Lt. Brian D. Slavenas, 30, of Genoa, who was in the Illinois National Guard, Pvt. Christopher M. Alcozer, 25, of DeKalb, who was in the U.S. Army, and Illinois National Guard Spc. Ashley Sietsema."

This article was taken from: http://www.daily-chronicle.com/articles/2009/09/14/41634766/index.xml

Monday, September 14, 2009

Theres so much rejoicing happening in my heart right now...

When I get permission to let you all know what has happened I surely will...just know its been something really tugging at my heart for the last few months and I'm praising God today that it has HAPPENED!! THANK YOU JESUS THAT YOU WOULD CALL US YOUR OWN!!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

And again our hometown celebrates...

Another one of my Hometown Heros has returned home...He actually came home on Thursday...We are so proud of you Chris! WELCOME HOME BUDDY!!