Another one bites the dust!!!

No, Ryan and I didn't break up...I dropped another pound!! WHOOOP WHOOP!!

Heres a song that really motivates me to get up and get going....LOVE it!

I know that you are for me...

I have been struggling quite a bit lately with my mind, and the lies that fill it. In all kinds of ways such as, attacks against myself, with words that others say to or about me, with things that have happened in the past. I fight to now allow those thoughts to envelope me, and yet today I find myself struggling to the grasp the edge. Some events have led me to feel like I can't truly share myself in fear of it getting turned around and making me into seeming like a jerk. I hate that, and I know that everyone involved hates it too. Its an awful situation that the gospel does and will rectify.

How often I forget that even when it seems like all hope is lost, its not. Its the extreme opposite of lost, if I would just hold on my Savior will remedy it all, as He's paid it all as he hung on the cross.

Father, God, forgive me for being so consumed with the lies that are in my head. God forgive me for some of the ridiculous thoughts I allowed to bounce around in my mind instead of turning to You, and Your perfect word. God would I not lean on my own understanding and what I think is best, but that I would seek out You and Your perfect will, Father. That I would pause when a negative thought comes into my mind and would realize that that isn't bring you any glory or honor and that I would meditate on Your truth. Father, God, that no matter what may come or what I or anyone says Lord that I would never forget that I am Yours. That You are for me. That You aren't against me, ever, and even in that God that any evil that comes upon me had to be cleared by You first. And that You allow it not only for my good but You allow it to bring glory and honor to You. Father, how lightly I sometimes take the fact that I am Your child, how easily I forget what it means for me to be a daughter of The King. Father I pray that You continue to stir in me a renewed sense in just how precious it is to be Yours, and to know that no matter what may come or how hard it may seem, God that I'd always remember that You are for me and I am Yours. Amen

I was dead and am alive, I was lost and am found.

Last night I went and got my very first tattoo. It was an impulsive thing to do, and yet it wasn't at the same time. I didn't know I was going to go last night, but I have been thinking about getting one for a few years now. I didn't know I'd end up with the one that I did, until yesterday as before I always wanted one to honor my grandmother. She would have hated it. So I decided against it but still wanted some kind of a tattoo on my right ankle. Yesterday it finally hit me. I wanted to go get it. And the idea of the one that I got came to me and it all made sense so I went with it.  I couldn't enjoy it more.

What you see above is the tattoo that I ended up with. Its written in Korean. Its pronounced nangbija, and it is the adjective form of Prodigal. I spent a year in South Korea while I was in the Army and while I was there some major poor decisions I had made before the Army caught up to me. I chose to lie about them, and then finally decided to tell the truth. When I did that, my then fiance' Rob...left me. I was in a foreign country, newly single, a wedding gown was already being fitted for me by Korean women who spoke very little English. And I was an ocean away from all the ones I loved. I got very depressed, and really didn't enjoy my personal time while I was there. I turned to alcohol and food to take care of my needs. When I got back to America I cherished our way of life much more and now looking back I'm thankful for all of the events that happened over there that helped break me down to eventually see how desperately I was in need of a Savior. That's why it is written in Korean. Prodigal comes from the story of the Prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32) This is the series the pastor at the church I was attending was preaching on when I realized I was in need of a Savior. That story is very close to my heart, especially verse 32 when the father is talking to the son that had never left his side, the father says, "It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found."

So there you have, the full story on my tattoo.

Cheater, cheater drive thru eater!

I'm ashamed of myself this week. I ate drive thru this evening...KFC grilled chicken sandwich with some kind of sauce, and fries. :-( I was starving after going grocery shopping straight after work...bad idea but it was my only time to go as tomorrow night is our ladies community night and Thursday evening my sweetie will be here!! :-)

Even worse than eating drive thru today, I have to admit that I haven't worked out in about a week. :-( And then I competed in my "Biggest Loser" Wii game's weekly competition and got 6th out of 7, and then was up for elimination because I didn't drop enough weight this week :-( SUPER LAME!

So tonight I did 5 sets of 40 crunches to kick start myself back in the right direction. :-) I need to find a better way to motivate myself!

I'm a NEW AUNTIE!!!

Kelson John Woodard arrived today at 12:42 pm! He weighed 8 lbs 2 oz and was 20 1/2 in. long! Enjoy the pics!!

One VERY proud Auntie! I love my nephews & niece sooo much!

My beautiful sister-in-law, nephew Jackson, niece Addison, & nephew Kelson!

being born is hard work!

BOOMMMMMM

Its been a few weeks of weight changes going up and back down, and fighting the urge to be lazy, but I think I finally have myself starting a routine! I purchased The Biggest Loser Wii game and LOOOOOOVE it! So, I just wanted to celebrate with you all, I'm down 1lb!!!

starting anew...

I love how human I am...so sinful too. (thats a sarcastic tone you're reading!) How many times have I announced on here that I'm losing weight, and then I dont....well...here we go again! This time I'm using a Jillian Michaels Wii game along with the combination of the Wii fit plus that came with the Wii fit board. I've been asked to be part of a bridal party in the spring of 2012 and so I'm using that as my motivation to grow my hair out and finally shed the pounds. I've figured out that my weight is assisting my attitude in a downward spiral as I've been really disliking the way I look for months now. I'm at the point where I'm truly unhappy when I see anything but my face in pictures and the mirror, and I'm fed up with it. No part of abusing my body or disliking the way I look is biblical and that alone is motivation enough to make a change. Stick with me, its bound to be a bumpy ride!