I've been walking a hard path along side my darling friend who recently lost her husband. (Why do we say someone "lost" someone who passed away? It's not like we don't know where he is, we do. Or why do they refer to someones spouse that passed away as their "late" spouse, Jon isn't late. He's with my Savior, if anything we are late to the party. But that's another blog, another day.) I've struggled through the whys and how could yous of this hard time, my dear friend and I have cried together, laughed together, sat quietly together and made a heck of a mess together too. And yet one common theme still rings in our conversations. Life is hard right now. Life doesn't make sense sometimes. But, sometimes, it makes complete sense.
Today I had the pleasure of going on a quick car trip with my friend. I had the honor of just sitting and listening as she spoke. As she shared what's been happening in her world. I can't even fathom it, it doesn't seem real all the time...and yet, here we are. Tears were brimming my eyes as she shared and I shared some of what has been going on in my heart too. All the while the radio was playing in the background. Every new topic we discussed it was like God was handpicking out lyrics for us to hear. The main theme of all of the songs was pure truth. Christ endured a hard life that we might have life in Him, He will never leave us, We are never alone. And that, if nothing else right now, makes perfect sense.
This is one of the songs that was playing as we spoke:
You'll Never Be Alone
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
The name game
The two biggest questions I get these days are,
1. "Are you going to find out what you are having?"
2. "Do you have names picked out?"
Well the answer is yes, we are going to find out the gender we are having (so long as baby cooperates), and the ultrasound is scheduled for the 28th of this month!! 2 weeks from tomorrow is the big day and I can hardly wait!!
The second question has been harder for me. We have the boy name set, if I'm blessed with a boy he will be named Jonathan James Prickett. The name holds big meaning to my husband and I as a dearly beloved brother in Christ of ours was recently called home to be with the Lord. His name was Jonathan. My brother's name is John. So the baby would be named for the both of them. James is also a family name. My great uncle is named James and my father's middle name is James as well, so his middle name will come from the both of them.
The girl name has posed a problem for me since day 1. There have been a few names that I really like and would love to name a daughter for, one in particular being my grandmother Yvonne. I've thought and entertained several beautiful names and yet none of them seem to click in my mind as much as the boy name does. I've lost a few nights sleep over trying to find a girls name I am head over heels with, so I've decided unless the ultra sound tells us its a girl I'm not going to fuss about it anymore. (Dear baby, if you are a girl, know that it isn't a lack of love for you that we can't figure out a name for you yet, but rather, that I want just the right name for you! :-)
1. "Are you going to find out what you are having?"
2. "Do you have names picked out?"
Well the answer is yes, we are going to find out the gender we are having (so long as baby cooperates), and the ultrasound is scheduled for the 28th of this month!! 2 weeks from tomorrow is the big day and I can hardly wait!!
The second question has been harder for me. We have the boy name set, if I'm blessed with a boy he will be named Jonathan James Prickett. The name holds big meaning to my husband and I as a dearly beloved brother in Christ of ours was recently called home to be with the Lord. His name was Jonathan. My brother's name is John. So the baby would be named for the both of them. James is also a family name. My great uncle is named James and my father's middle name is James as well, so his middle name will come from the both of them.
The girl name has posed a problem for me since day 1. There have been a few names that I really like and would love to name a daughter for, one in particular being my grandmother Yvonne. I've thought and entertained several beautiful names and yet none of them seem to click in my mind as much as the boy name does. I've lost a few nights sleep over trying to find a girls name I am head over heels with, so I've decided unless the ultra sound tells us its a girl I'm not going to fuss about it anymore. (Dear baby, if you are a girl, know that it isn't a lack of love for you that we can't figure out a name for you yet, but rather, that I want just the right name for you! :-)
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
A boring/exciting testimony...
I found myself in prayer the other day as I was driving home from the gym. As I prayed a conversation came to mind that I had had with other believers months ago. We were talking about our testimonies and one friend commented how sometimes she gets jealous that she has what we sometimes call a "boring testimony," meaning she was saved at an early age and raised by believers. She didn't make a lot of bad choices but from an early age had walked with the Lord. My husband and I have what is sometimes called an "exciting testimony" we were both raised in good homes and grew up going to a church. But we didn't become believers until later in life and a whole lot of terrible choices came before we found salvation in Christ.
As I prayed over my friends and family, etc I found myself praying over my unborn child. I started to pray that my child would have a boring testimony...and then the Lord laid a different prayer on my heart. It doesn't matter if my child has a boring or exciting testimony. It doesn't matter what I did or didn't do. What matters is what Christ did. He lived a sinless life, He died on the cross, He rose from the dead, He sits at God's right hand. He did it so that I could have life in Him. And so my prayer now is that my child just simply has a testimony, for that would mean that my child came to have abundant life in our Creator. And that, to me, is ALL that matters.
As I prayed over my friends and family, etc I found myself praying over my unborn child. I started to pray that my child would have a boring testimony...and then the Lord laid a different prayer on my heart. It doesn't matter if my child has a boring or exciting testimony. It doesn't matter what I did or didn't do. What matters is what Christ did. He lived a sinless life, He died on the cross, He rose from the dead, He sits at God's right hand. He did it so that I could have life in Him. And so my prayer now is that my child just simply has a testimony, for that would mean that my child came to have abundant life in our Creator. And that, to me, is ALL that matters.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
A long time coming...
Holy moly, I can't believe my last blog was December 2011...so sorry if you were following me!! So very much has happened since then! I am now very happily married to my best friend and love Ryan. That happened in July 2012...and we're expecting our first child, due August 2013! What an amazing and God blessed 7 months its been since we were married. It's been very challenging, we've laughed, we've cried, we've fought, and fought some more, we've mourned the passing of an amazing Godly man, we've cherished new babies born into our church family, we've said good bye to dear friends who moved away and hello to new friends that came into our lives. Ryan was blessed at the very beginning of our marriage (we were literally on our honeymoon when he got the call) to be offered a very well paying job, and at the start of this new year I lost my job and am now a stay at home wife. I wouldn't have my life any other way. God's grace has been overly abundant sprinkling into our lives at times and showering down at others but always present none the less.
And so here we are, all caught up on what I've been up to (for the most part I know I left a lot out) and now we can move forward in blogs to come! For tonight, enjoy some engagement, wedding, and family photos!
Engaged: January 2011
Married: July 21 2012
Tobinson Family photos taken Fall 2012
And so here we are, all caught up on what I've been up to (for the most part I know I left a lot out) and now we can move forward in blogs to come! For tonight, enjoy some engagement, wedding, and family photos!
Engaged: January 2011
Tobinson Family photos taken Fall 2012
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