Dear loved ones, (and anyone else finding my blog)
I apologize for my absence...I've been going through some things, some medical things. I found out that I have a genetic condition that affects my whole body. Its answering lots of questions of why I am the way that I am, why its hard for me to lose weight, why I can go from happy to out of control angry in seconds, why I crave crappy carbohydrates, etc. I'm not fully ready to disclose what I am going through yet, as this is something I will battle the rest of my life. Please don't worry, this won't kill me...Other things could kill me as a result of this, but I caught it young enough that I can work now to change my entire life and I won't allow it to progress into what it could. No, I don't have a tumor or cancer, please don't worry. But, because of this condition it is physically easier for me to gain weight and harder for me to lose it than the normal 27 year old woman.
I'm overwhelmed by all that I learning about this syndrome...however the one thing I know and find my hope in, is that God knew when He formed me that I would face this and that He would take care of me. Habakkuk 1:5 says this response from the Lord to Habakkuk "Look among the nations, and see; wonder and be astounded. For I am doing a work in your days that you would not believe if told." What love the Father has for us that He would be doing a work in me that I wouldn't believe if I were told. That chokes me up. I pray that even when I wrestle with all the questions I have of this that I would respond as Habakkuk does in Habakkuk 3:17-19 "Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. GOD, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer's; he makes me tread on my high places. To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments." Amen Habakkuk!! Oh to have faith like that!
My weight loss journey is still going, so don't give up on me and I won't give up either!
In Christ,
Em
