Can you say, "Help Please?!"

Those are the two words I find myself repeating the majority of my days that I'm working with the toddler I watch (I'll call her A.) She's 16 months old and instead of asking for help will try and try and try and get frustrated in the midst of her trying and start whining/screaming/crying or any combination of those three. I'll walk over to her, help her and in the midst of is say, "A can you say Help Please...Help Please" She isn't fully talking yet so I don't expect it but I feel like if I keep feeding her the words eventually she'll get it. Its a different story when I'm around my 3 year old nephew. He will ask for help in heartbeat. "Meme, you please help me??" What a sweet innocent voice, how can I not.

I'm such a fool sometimes. Let me start there. Or maybe even a hypocrite. That wouldn't be far from the truth. I'm trying to teach A to ask for help and I encourage Jackson to ask for it, but when it comes to my own life I have such a difficult time asking for help. I'm at a new place in life where yesterday I had to completely humble myself and repeatedly tell the ones that I love so dearly that I didn't ask for help and now I'm so far down the path that all I can do is go back and try to slowly undo the damage I've done. I'm moving home with my mom to get myself out of this monetary hole I've dug. And while I've had attempts to help pay my debts I feel its best that I go back, have fewer bills and get myself back to a debt free state of life. Its hard to ask for help, but I'm finding comfort in the following verse,

At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:1-4

If I would only humble myself so easily as Jackson does, I'd be following this path. That's my goal right now, to get back to a humble state as a child where I'm not afraid to say, "Help me please" and allow someone to assist me. Its time to stop being prideful and attempting to do this on my own. I'm accepting my mothers help of allowing me to move in and teach me not only to make a budget but to live on one. I'm really excited and I know only glory to God lies in front of me. I'd be so lost without the cross and the saving grace that Jesus gives. I'm ever grateful for His sacrifice.

Lost in the media...

I've really been paying attention to my habits when it comes to tv lately. And what I'm noticing about me scares me alittle. I've found that I am capable of getting so sucked into tv/movies, that I allow it to affect me to the core. For instance, I just watched The Back-up Plan a movie where the main character goes for invitro fertilization because she wants a family and hasn't found the perfect mate. Well, the day that she goes in and just happens to get pregnant, she also meets just minutes later the man of her dreams. And the movie unfolds their story of how she tells him of her pregnancy and how they work through it together. The movie itself left me feeling lonely and sad. I think mainly because of the ending (which to most is a happy one no worries.) But I allow those types of movies to as Seth would say, emotionally manipulate me. Thats so not cool. Because the truth is that I'm loved by the creator of romance. Jesus Christ himself. I'm not really sure where this blog is going other than its time to allow the Holy Spirit to do the work that has already been stirred up in me and correct my allowance of emotional manipulation, and if I'm finding a movie/tv show that is doing that to me...maybe I just need to start walking away or turning it off. Cause really, that movie brought no glory to God so why did I finish it anyway?! huh...oh well.

On another note...I had the most fantastic weekend in Wisconsin with Kati, Gregg and Ryan! Heres a picture of Ryan and I at the apple orchard that he, Kati and I went to while Gregg was at work!
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